If you don't push the limits you will never know them

During the past two days I have read an entire book, not slept, worked out twice, done tons of homework, been an emotional wreck and did I mention I haven't slept in two days. One of the things many people don't know about me is that I have enlarged organs. Everything from my heart to my stomach to my kidneys. They are all too big for my body. I should be 6'3" 220 lbs. This has pros and cons to it. One of the pros is that I'm able to last longer than most everyone else at almost everything, except sex dammit. But anyway, I was going to blog earlier but realized that it would have just been a bitch fest about you know who. So I waited and learned and took from my experiences that everyone has a threshold. Today, after having no sleep and going to classes, I was ready to pass out and take a well deserved nap instead of working out. However, I had made up my mind last night to talk to you know who. The conversation I was wanting to have with you know was filling all my thoughts and as I laid down I realized that this was a perfect chance to test my limits. I was exhausted, emotionally upset, and wanted to talk to you know who. However, I got up, got dressed and went to the weight room to do a rather hard leg workout. So on to the moral of today. Your body is more than just organs and blood and water. That is what your body needs but not what it is. You are emotional, mental, physical, spiritual, etc... When one part of yourself falters and sways your true strength is tested. It is up to the rest of yourself to hold you steady and strong. I was a mental and emotional wreck, however my physical strength hadn't given up on me. I was able to block out the thoughts but pushing myself physically.

Don't give up on yourself. When you feel down and beaten don't give up but see what you can take. There will always be more tests and obstacles to overcome and if you have never attempted to beat them you never will. Life is a test and you don't have to be book smart to pass it. Just push yourself to do more than you have in the past and be more than you were yesterday. Today I am still an emotional wreck because I want you know who, but I am able to overcome that and push my limits in other areas.

BTW I did text you know who and you know who said we could be friends which is like kissing your sister but fuck it with every day brings me one day closer to being whole again.

"Time doesn't heal all wounds, I have the scars to prove it." Me and probably a bunch of other people.
"Don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out alive." VanWilder