Can't end on 13

So my last blog was number 13 and I can't leave it at that so I'm writing another. I've decided to make this one about my life. Many people think they know me but in fact they only know a very very small portion of who I am. First of all many people don't know that I have always lived on a farm. I was born in Hartford City, IN and lived with my mom and grandparents until I was 4. I have never met my father before and for that fact I don't even know his name, but I don't care about that. Anyways, I grew up in the country and spent my time in the great outdoors. When I was 8 my mom married my stepdad, Mike. We moved to his house which is a big three story log cabin. There I really began my farm life. I raised chickens, goats, and show cattle. I had cashmere goats, like cashmere sweaters. I did this until I came to college. Also, all through my life I have played sports, mainly baseball. I also ran cross country and track and a little soccer. In high school I wasn't the average kid. Many people were in one social group, but not me. I was in FFA, I was actually President of Freshman FFA, also a member of the parliamentary procedure and soil judging team. I was an athlete, I lettered 7 times, and was all-conference once. I was also one of the "smart kids," with all the honors and stuff. Many of you say well you're just the average "good" kid. But I also hung out with alot of the "druggies." I never did drugs but for some reason they trusted me and it seemed like a better idea to have them as friends rather than enemies since they were usually the ones who got into fights haha. I never had many people who didn't like me and if I did, because I hung out with so many people, there were a lot more people who disliked them because of them not liking me.
I like to think of myself as a very well rounded person. I can do many things that people never thought possible of me. However, here it seems that people are only interested in one particular me. If I'm not the rich kid, or the smart kid, or the baseball player then I am nothing here. This doesn't seem right to me. If I meet someone they will never know the true me. I'm not just a few things. I am a unique person with many skills and attributes. Hopefully, after reading this you will know a little more about me.

I'm kind of in a Winston Churchill mood so another quote from him to end on. "Everyone has his day and some days just last longer than others."

One of those days

Today has just been one of those days. You know the kind of day that you just can't wait to get done with but you have so much to do that it just drags on. I finally got my computer half way fixed but it still isn't acting right. I've stopped researching and working because it's just irritating me at the moment and I don't want to do it right now. Winston Churchill may have been an extraordinary person but right now he is a real fuck. The Cubs lost today. Sorry for reminding you Erp and Char, since you may be reading this now. But anyways this loss doesn't really effect me it just seems kind of sad that they lost. I understand their pain. We lost in extra innings to Rose-Hulman and it sucked balls. Since I'm on the subject of baseball, the thought crossed my mind again about whether or not I really want to play anymore. It's kind of scary because I can't remember a time when I haven't played baseball. Hopefully I pitch tomorrow and cheer up about the whole thing. I was talking to a freshman today about school and stuff and he said that he just didn't think that he could keep up anymore. I tried telling him that everyone feels that way and that he could if he put his mind to it. However, relating this to me, it's not that I can't keep up and succeed it's that I just don't want to at the moment. The Great Erp said that this last weekend was completely boring, but for some reason to me it was the exact opposite. It was probably the most fun I've had here in a really long time. Between school, baseball, love life or lack there of, and my computer crashing I've been put in a pretty crappy mood inside. On a brighter note, I was able to wear shorts to class today for the first time this year. Also, while I was running today for baseball I thought to myself, "It's just life, people have gone through it before and done fine, and if some of the people I see on tv and other places can succeed then shit can't be that hard."

"For my part, I consider that it will be found much better by all parties to leave the past to history, especially as I propose to write that history myself." Sir Winston Churchill. This doesn't really have anything to do with the blog but I really like this quote.
Also, as my blog is so cleverly titled. "It's just life" and it could always be worse.

I'm Back

I haven't blogged in quite some time now. That is because my computer crashed and I have been unable to do anything. However, now it is fixed. I had to use my restoration disks and pretty much deleted everything I had on it. It isn't completely bad though. I added a couple awesome applications to my mozilla firefox. Zotero helps me while researching which as a history major I do quite a bit of. Blogrovr alerts me when anyone blogs which I try to keep up with constantly. And Digsby is like aim only I can keep track of facebook and email notification through it as well. I don't remember exactly what my last blog was about so I will just start fresh. I made a list of things to write about when my computer started working again. It included things like baseball, love life, life on other planets, my general attitude and shit like that. And actually I don't think I'm going to write about any of those right now. I want to gather some thoughts and I may write a good one tonight. This was merely to fulfill my addiction of blogging.

New things

Follow up blog, sorry there are two you don't have to read them they are more for my thoughts.

This blog is going to be completely different from the last one. This one is going to be about different kinds of feelings. I think whatever The Great Erp was suffering from the past few weeks has passed to me. I haven't really wanted to say anything because I expected the feelings to pass. However, they haven't. Lately I have been "love sick" to quote a fellow teammate with similar problems. It isn't lustful but more just a need to be wanted. I think this is also why I am having mixed feelings for baseball. Lately, I have been seeing people in relationships and feeling very jealous. Earlier I was talking to a girl from South Bend who actually seemed to kind of like me, which is really weird if you knew the situation. However, it felt good to talk to someone like that. I find myself listening to music more than I ever have and I think it is to try and escape my own thoughts.
I know that my friends are here and they are very close to me but as you know it isn't the same. I am sure these feelings will pass eventually but it is starting to be depressing and aggravating. Sorry if I bored you the next one will be more uplifting.

Choices

Do you ever dream about what your life will be like in the future. Lately, these thoughts have continued to distract me. I am constantly asking myself if the choices I am making now are the right ones for me later in life. Will I look back and regret anything.
Baseball has always been a huge part of my life. Ever since I could pick up a ball I have been playing catch. For the most part I believe that I have always been extremely gifted. I may not be the most talented but I was always dependable and never was seriously injured. Even as a freshman last year. Players knew that they could depend on me in tough situations and usually succeed. This seems like a major tangent from the first paragraph, but today I got the opportunity to pitch again and didn't succeed. I came in relief and only pitched 1/3 of an inning before being taken back out. As I was sitting on the bench afterwards the thought crossed my mind about quitting. My arm has been hurting lately and I am nowhere near as good as I once was. At first I thought it was just because I was mad at my performance, but now I'm not sure. I know that I would probably regret it in the future, but who knows. In all my dreams of the future baseball has never been a part of it. I've never really had the dreams of playing in the big league or coaching or anything. I love to play now but if I'm not playing well and am not happy with my performances is it really worth the pain of losing. I'm writing this pretty early so there will probably be a follow up blog later on once my head clears a little.

p.s. I highly doubt that I will give up ball anytime soon, these are just thoughts that concern me.

Apologies

It was brought to my attention today by another beautiful young princess that by posting my last blog I could have stolen the dreams of many young girls who wanted to be princesses. That was not my intention, I was merely elaborating on a conversation held here last night. So for all those young "princesses" out there who are reading this blog, I apologize and you can still be a princess.

Those childhood princesses

I know all of you thought Snow White and Cinderella and Jasmine and all those other princesses were sexy as children. Hell I think they are hot now. However, after much research and debate it can be concluded that they probably all had bushes. Snow White was probably a little slut sleeping around with those seven guys. Cinderella may have been shaved cleaned because she had to get ready for a ball. Jasmine was Pakistani so she probably definitely had a bush. The little mermaid was likely to be clean but that is only because she didn't really have a downstairs to be shaved. However, the real story is about Rapunzel. That sexy long-haired nymph it has been concluded probably had an enormous bush. While some say that she would have been clean because she was a princess, an historian came up with the response that women of that time would not have been properly shaved. However, the debate is still out. If anyone who reads this who isn't already involved in the debate your comments are welcome.

Back to roommates and halo

So the past week was spring break here at the chet. I had the room to myself for the whole week. While that may sound good to many, it had it's downsides. I was alone in here for a week. Only the team was around to hang out with. This led to a lot of "alone" time. Sidenote: Manchester swept Hanover and are 3-0 in conference, and I'm still leading conference in pick-offs. Anyways the roommates are back and the great Erp has returned to the throne of Helman 2nd floor. Without delay the roomies returned to the usual halo adventures and the new vocab was again reinstated. Such as, "Son of a bitch, that asshole t-bagged me" by DALE. Spring break couldn't have ended in a more perfect way for me however. First off I got to go to Hanover and see a couple friends from high school, including the beautiful Saffron (added that for you) oh and Joe was there too somewhere. Then I got to go home for the first time really since January. I went home for a day another time but didn't get to spend any real time at home. However, everyone was sick so we didn't have our big family dinner but I went and ate with my grandpa which was fun. My brother Jake got a new nerf gun for Easter, which by the way hurts pretty bad when you get hit with it. He has a couple bruises accidentally from it. Anyways spring break was pretty fun but I'm glad to be back in the company of the roommates, including the great Erp and mooch.

Spring Break '08

Well I'm kind of ashamed to say it but this spring break is probably the best one I've had. No I'm not in Florida or Cancun. I'm not even at home, I'm at school. Our baseball team is staying here and playing baseball all spring break. However, yesterdays games and todays games were both canceled. So yesterday at practice we played dodgeball and today after practice we went bowling. The nights have been pretty entertaining also. Last night we played capture the flag in Garver Hall which ended in many people being very sore and tired and one person in the hospital (Buell, nothing serious though). Tonight we are supposed to set up a giant putt putt course here in Helman. Other nights consisted of watching movies and winning bets so I can't complain at all. Well I hope my RA is enjoying work more, I'm glad the roommate is shortening his blogs, and I hope the democrat still loves me.

Hanson: "If it smells like trout, I ain't gonna eat that shit out"

Everyone else is doing it

Well I figured since everyone of my other friends blogged tonight I may as well also. I'm very proud of my roommate for his brief blog and his good work ethic. I'm sorry to hear that my RA is not enjoying work very well. And glad to hear that the democrat is keeping up his white trashy quotes and video game obsession. However, on to my adventures for today. Today was my first ever start as a Manchester Spartan. I started against Lakeland College from Wisconsin. I know that many of you could care less about the outing but I don't care. The first inning I gave up one run which was earned. The second inning I gave up another which was unearned. However, luckily we scored two runs also. So the score was tied 2-2. Many days when I pitch I don't have a very good curve or slider. But today I had a good slider, I wouldn't call it amazing but it was very affective. Anyways, there lead-off batter was an excellent fastball hitter. He hit a lead-off double to begin the game by the way. But anyways he got up again and I threw him two sliders that he watched for strikes then a splitter out of the zone and then another slider that made him look like an absolute fool. Unfortunately, the game concluded with me losing. The sixth inning came around and I kinda didn't fair too well. I gave up three runs on stupid mistakes by myself. I came out after the 6th inning with the score being 5-2 them. Zack Miller then came in and gave up 3 more runs to make a final score of 8-2. However, on a lighter note I struck out 6 picked off 2 and I think I only gave up 3 earned runs. Well thanks for reading faithful fans.
Quote of the night:
Eric Foreman: "turns out possession is 9/10 of the law"
Red Foreman: "keep up with the smart mouth and my foot will be 9/10 the way up your ass."

The joys of home and family

Being at Manchester is usually a blast, there are very few times when I really want to go home. However, I have been having the urge to go home for about a week now. Luckily today I got that chance. We played at taylor today and split with them. We won the first 4-2 and lost the second 2-1 on a last inning squeeze play (if you don't know the terminology don't ask). But anyways my mom was able to come to the game and while I didn't pitch I did get to go home with her afterwards and see my little brother. He had forgotten that I was supposed to come home today and when he heard my voice I heard this excited voice yell "bubby" from downstairs. While some may make fun of me for this, but it was truly a heart felt moment. I hadn't been home and seen him since January and while there is 14 years between us he means a lot to me. So needless to say, today was a great day. I got loaded up on groceries, a haircut, and most importantly got to spend some time with my family.

I want to keep all my roommates posted on the state of our room after having just me in it for a full day. Nothing is broken, the snack cabinet is full to the bursting and I'm still alive. Spring Break '08 is not as bad or as lonely as I had expected. And by the way goal accomplished. To those involved you know what I mean.

Now I like to end on a witty or funny quote so here it goes: "Friendship is like peeing on yourself, everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings."

Friends and enemies

I've decided to use this blog more as a comment than an actual blog. A friend of mine was currently going through a rather rough spell of his life. He may have had harder times in the past but he has definitely had easier times also. To lay some foundation, he had previously broken up with his girlfriend with whom he had been dating for quite some time. However, it wasn't a bad breakup they were in a very long relationship and decided mutually to "take a break." Since that time there is this other girl who was supposedly "talking" with him. Unfortunately, this umm girl (for lack of a better term) seems to be only using him for his intelligence. So I understand that there are probably no girls who are reading this, but if there one ever does, don't play games with guys. It pisses them off then it pisses their friends off and then all the friends blog about you. It's kind of an evil cycle but eventually everyone will know you are a bitch. I think my friend if finally realizing that there are more important things in life.

One more thing that I would like to comment about is mooch. While his behavior lately has definitely put the friendship between him and I at risk, he has been acting even more immature and "unfriend" like this week. The graduate returned and has thus made mooch that much more of an ass. Again to comment of a friends blog, there are differences between people. Those who are your friends throughout and will give up "candy" in order to hang out and not put you in a position to use your authority. There are also those "friends" who refuse to respect the position that you are put in and make your job almost impossible. I do not think mooch reads this blog but if he ever would remember some friends you will be around for a lifetime it's best not to make enemies of them too soon.

p.s. hope this didn't bore anyone or completely piss anyone off, these are just thoughts that have been on my mind even though they really have very little to do with me.

Tattoos, lip piercings, and nascar video games

I finally finished my history exam today. (enough said about that topic) Anyways, I think I've finally decided again to get a tattoo. I am planning on getting my family crest over my heart. However, the problem is I don't know what my family crest looks like exactly. Did you know they won? (inside joke) Moving on to the other topics for tonight. Lip piercings. A friend of mine, we shall call him the democrat, made the comment that he may get his lip pierced. His reasoning was that it was cheaper than a tattoo. Well for the democrat, a lip piercing may be the gayest thing you could get. You may as well top it off and get your tongue pierced. For you readers imagine hypothetically a 6'5" 125lb white guy with long hair and a lip piercing. Furthermore, the democrat rented a Nascar video game after we made fun of D3 for being a Nascar fan. By the way our D3 was throwing down some mad A game today for a very attractive blonde. Hopefully she doesn't touch his leg, he may not last. There was no halo playing tonight, which is almost like the sun not rising in the morning, weird. Holy shit they won! (another inside joke)

To finish up a very wise man once said "If you can't beat 'em, then cheat."

The language of Halo

I'm going to begin my first blog with a shout out to probably the only two people who will read it, Dave and Larry. Thanks for the idea. I've decided to write this blog because it appeared to be a good idea to "anonymously" speak my mind. While my friends have made the challenge of posting a nightly blog, I have decided that a weekly blog may be more my style. I can keep track of my thoughts and ideas throughout the week and then hopefully compose a blog of substantial worth. But on to the subject for tonight. The language of halo. For those of you who do not play you may not understand (however I'm pretty sure it's just Dave and Larry so you will get it). But during halo there is a certain language that is used. For instance, if you run into a room and get demolished by a hammer and then stuck with a grenade and then destroyed with a shotgun it is apparently customary to say "fucking bull fucking shit" in a very agitated voice. Or if you miss a guy 33 times with a BR (battle rifle for non-gamers) then get absolutely, completely pulverized by a rocket launcher you should simply say "bull fucking shit" or "fuck me fucking bullshit fucking shit." While this language may be offensive to some, apparently it is necessary to say while getting owned all the time in halo. I could go on but I think this is a sufficient blog for my first time. Thanks to those who read it and I will hopefully produce many more quality readings.