New things

Follow up blog, sorry there are two you don't have to read them they are more for my thoughts.

This blog is going to be completely different from the last one. This one is going to be about different kinds of feelings. I think whatever The Great Erp was suffering from the past few weeks has passed to me. I haven't really wanted to say anything because I expected the feelings to pass. However, they haven't. Lately I have been "love sick" to quote a fellow teammate with similar problems. It isn't lustful but more just a need to be wanted. I think this is also why I am having mixed feelings for baseball. Lately, I have been seeing people in relationships and feeling very jealous. Earlier I was talking to a girl from South Bend who actually seemed to kind of like me, which is really weird if you knew the situation. However, it felt good to talk to someone like that. I find myself listening to music more than I ever have and I think it is to try and escape my own thoughts.
I know that my friends are here and they are very close to me but as you know it isn't the same. I am sure these feelings will pass eventually but it is starting to be depressing and aggravating. Sorry if I bored you the next one will be more uplifting.