Choices

Do you ever dream about what your life will be like in the future. Lately, these thoughts have continued to distract me. I am constantly asking myself if the choices I am making now are the right ones for me later in life. Will I look back and regret anything.
Baseball has always been a huge part of my life. Ever since I could pick up a ball I have been playing catch. For the most part I believe that I have always been extremely gifted. I may not be the most talented but I was always dependable and never was seriously injured. Even as a freshman last year. Players knew that they could depend on me in tough situations and usually succeed. This seems like a major tangent from the first paragraph, but today I got the opportunity to pitch again and didn't succeed. I came in relief and only pitched 1/3 of an inning before being taken back out. As I was sitting on the bench afterwards the thought crossed my mind about quitting. My arm has been hurting lately and I am nowhere near as good as I once was. At first I thought it was just because I was mad at my performance, but now I'm not sure. I know that I would probably regret it in the future, but who knows. In all my dreams of the future baseball has never been a part of it. I've never really had the dreams of playing in the big league or coaching or anything. I love to play now but if I'm not playing well and am not happy with my performances is it really worth the pain of losing. I'm writing this pretty early so there will probably be a follow up blog later on once my head clears a little.

p.s. I highly doubt that I will give up ball anytime soon, these are just thoughts that concern me.