For those who don't know me the best I would like to begin by saying that I am a pretty guarded person who usually doesn't let his feelings show. I have never really been one who expresses himself. Even more so I'm not the kind of person who likes to vent. Some may disagree but if they really think about it I listen more to their problems more than I express my own. Also, while I may tell them the situation I rarely tell them how I feel about it. There really isn't any one person who I completely open up to. Even my fellow leo doesn't know everything about me. However, leo does probably know the most out of anyone around me that is probably because of other reasons that I open up rather than just the want or need to express myself. However, that is probably another story. This weekend something happened to me that has never happened to me before. I was not only rejected but completely and utterly demolished. I don't really want to go into the story but just know that it was enough to piss me off. I haven't been truly mad in a long time. I am usually very good about keeping withdrawn enough to not get mad but for some reason I had other things in mind besides her leaving to sleep with some guy only 5 minutes after I even met her. So I can put on a happy face and pretend it doesn't bother me but it really does. Just the sight of her name makes me want to punch something. I sent her a text later that night after I was sure she was passed out or in to her stomach that just said "thanks." I thought it was just enough. Not to mad not to desperate, but enough to get my point across. So that is my story for tonight and it may not be much but there is definitely a lesson behind all this. I'm just not sure what it is yet. I think it has something to do with never let your guard down or never expect too much but that could be completely off. So on to as many quotes as I can put in here that are half way relevant to life.
"Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win." Johnathan Kozol
"A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities and an optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties." Harry S. Truman
"People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be." Abraham Lincoln
"Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future." Paul Boese
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